I was in Nazareth when something unbelievable happened to me. An angel came to me and spoke. He called me a “favored woman” and told me that the Lord is with me. I was so confused and scared that I didn’t know what he was talking about or what he meant. But then he told me not to be afraid. Apparently I’m going to have a baby, and I’m going to call him Jesus. He is going to be the Son of God. He will reign with a never ending kingdom over Israel forever.
This sounds crazy to me! I am a virgin! But nothing is impossible with God.
The angel tells me that I will remain a virgin because the Holy Spirit will come upon me so that my baby will be holy. Then he tells me Elizabeth is pregnant! This is unbelievable because she is old and nobody thought she could have children. She is six months pregnant! This is truly the work of God.
I told the angel that I am the Lord’s servant and that I believe everything he said to me would come true. Then he left.
I am a virgin.
I am pregnant.
With the Son of God, the Messiah.
Nothing is impossible with God.
I am not even married to Joseph yet. What people must think of me. I often wonder what I did to be chosen for this. Why me? Why not someone else? Surely someone else would have been better suited for this. Someone who is married. Someone who knows how to take care of a baby. I am so scared. What if I mess up?
What if I do something wrong? This is my life now. Endless questions about God’s plan. It hasn’t fully sunk in yet. I am carrying the Holy Child. Everything about this is a miracle. I know that Joseph must love me. Why else would he stay with me? I would have done anything God asked of me. Nothing is impossible with God. He will see me through this. I had no idea this would be so hard. I know I should be proud. But part of me still feels embarrassed and ashamed. I know I should be honored and blessed. I am scared and stressed. I should feel empowered; after all, I am the mother of the Messiah. I have to keep telling and reminding myself and believing that this is God’s plan for me.
I am going to be the mother of Jesus, and I am a virgin. Nothing is impossible with God.
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We understand that Joseph may have never felt or thought what is told here.
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